Talking to myself..

Well,.. my lovelife so far is sux! been working 10 to 12 hours a day.. sleep 7 hours a day and it leaves me with 5 hours to do something else in a day.. I have no life..

Actually.. it's my choice.. I could reduce my sleeping time to 2 hours, and spend it to travel back and forth to the city and have fun.. hanging with the girls.. hunting for the boys.. yea i could do that.. but I am not.. feels like a waste of time..

I am sitting here trying to think what's right and what's wrong.. try to do what's right and avoid the wrong.. but nothing good has happened to me.. I thought.. what the hell.. i could screw things up by doing the wrong thing.. at least i could have fun.. but I am not doing it.. not even trying.. and feels like I'm hiding now.. I dont know from what..

Anyway.. Finally.. me and Ky broke up.. officially.. my last post just from my side.. after almost two months he started contacting me.. This asshole has no shame.. and he didnt have.. acted like an innocent child asking me what's wrong with me.. What did he do wrong.. BASTARD!.. I told him I cant do it anymore.. he's been treating me wrong.. and he said.. Well.. i have plans for you when come back.. and it doesnt matter now.. we have something special.. I CANT BELIEVE THIS JERK!!.. didnt want to be rude or anything .. I just told him.. I CANT.. and that's all.. he said thank you.. and blablablabla in reply.. (still giving me that bullshit...) and I didnt reply..

Well.. it's for my own good.. and probably his own good.. No matter how unlucky I am in this matter.. I still want to believe that my soulmate is there.. somewhere..